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Friday, February 05, 2010 5:13 AM ♥
1st Feb 2010, a new start of my life. This journey is not going to be an easy one. I have to do a drastic change in my lifestyle, my atiitude, my way in adapting to different people and culture. However, I am really enjoying every bits and pieces of this moment. Sometimes I will reflect back to what I have learnt in Crown and applied it here; initiative. Not too much, not too little. Too much, people might just find you being a stuck-up or trying to bootlick. yea :)
I wana do it well and I know I will... No more distraction.
read something that he wrote today on his blog. Thought that he is really someone I like, I want. I guess I didnt expressed my feelings and actions well enuff last time. Never a single moment I stopped thinking about how closed we were before.
Can I just say that, I miss you?
<3 :)
ok, im gg to sleep now.. cant wait for the reunion steamboat w shi qin edna long ma seb stacey and all tomorrow!! :)
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Friday, October 02, 2009 8:19 AM ♥
i learnt a new lesson today.
Never let your anger cover up your heart from feeling, your eyes from seeing, your brain from memories of good deeds... ...
i rmbr the expensive bills from taiwan. i rmbr the mms bday cake from taiwan. i rmbr the lily. i rmbr the rings were so precious.
i rmbr the batam trip. . .
Thank you.
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Tuesday, September 29, 2009 4:33 AM ♥
now the more I think back. I realised that a few times I was right. Like you are on phone with another girl thats why u hang up my calls faking you want to sleep early,but when I called 3 4 times, my call was put on 'hold' alws....my call was a 2nd line. I knew something is amissed. I didnt trust but its you who alws saying why I dont trust you. You are alws doing things that dont earn my trust.
and you are such a loser man. U actually blogged something that U sent me when u first met me on ur blog to your so called new girl. OMG. U R SO NOT CREATIVE. I LAUGH HARD AT YOU. dont mk her next victim la plsss... sometimes i realli pity you. sighh..searching and wanting so hard for chinese girlss...haha.. u suits malay gers more la. all covered up w tudong. u dont allow ur gf to wear revealing wad...hahahaha! AND YOU ACTUALLY STILL BRING HER TO WHERE YOU FIRST BOUGHT ME TO WHEN WE WERE DATING. OMG omg omg omg. i pity tt ger now.
yeaa..today Boss is great. <3 He protected me from all my enemies~~~~ hehee.. I did some paper work stuff wrong and they wan me to do the amendment again.. I went for lunch and my boss walk out of his room asking my enemy whyy the paper is stuck somewhere & not processing?...so i quickly show him n tell him whyy. He then took the paper from me and say its ok, no need for admendment or anything!!!!!!
This kind of boss where to find??? omg la. I bet he saw the paper on my table when i left for lunch lor..just asking for the sake of asking cos i never tell him abt it, moreover i did tt paper detail for him one.
this boss is superb right??? and where got Boss telling you tt he is hungry.. like so weird to hear it from a Boss's mouth. LOL.
i dont like to be scolded by him.. i feel guilty for not doing something well..like letting him down. and I dont wana leave a bad impression on him.
Yesterday was Convocation for my graduation batch. I missed it. Cos of budget issue. sigh. nvm.
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Friday, September 25, 2009 8:39 PM ♥
1week has passed. Life is good. Evrything seems to be the same. Work is good. :)
Im so broke now. staying home n slack this wkend. Will go out shopping next wk!! must!! haha..
ever since i started working i have been real broke. and i dunno where my money have gone to mann. sicko.
received a sms from him on wed..thats a day b4 our 1yr together. well well... no much special feel, but i replied rather attitude back.
a: promise me that even we are not together, you must take good care of yourself k? :)
ME: i promise. anyw, we together or not makes no diff, i have been alws taking care of myself oso.
haha shuai ba me? ;p ok, theres a thing i wana clarify is that, because we seldom meet..like only once or twice and we dont do much things together that is so memorable for me to rmbr or miss (except when he was wooing me in ths first 3 wks....)
sigh.. guys eventually chged alot...drastically la i shud say.. arsseee. or only malay boys?!!!???!! haha!
someone taught me this...if you miss someone, go to sleep....sleep and sleep.. yea, and i slept at 930pm yesterday.cos i m missing him. and i dont wan to.
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Monday, August 17, 2009 6:08 AM ♥
what is wrong now? i am just simply showing concern for our new colleague and in the end i got " accused" of will cause trouble for others. well, ok, just let me knoe that u just merely wana protect urself from trouble. Dont have to make it sound professional that I am being busybody. I believe my position don come easy. I gotta gif feedbacks too!! I was told that everyone is equal in the office, and hello? its merely concern. I dun wana have any conflicts in office. I treated everyone as friends...i can be dumb or naive in ways like just blurt out wadever i wana say or say things stupidly. tts me. I dun wana hide and backstab. I can see that if in office if we want, everyone can be nice to another. we dun even hav to hide behind gossiping abt one another man.
im just super turned off that someone actually said used wad boss has said me b4 to say me back again. totally no link!! argh. whatever.
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Friday, July 17, 2009 6:03 AM ♥
its 9pm friday night. im not convinced by your reasons. i could see lies through your eyes.
what can I say now? I can only accept all the shit now. Since when i am given the choice?
Last night, i decided to destroy myself and unleash. i drunk a lil too much beer and got high ard 1030 alr.
I knoe what i m doing, i am still conscious but i don wana live to it. i unleash and i was so unglam. cry till my eyes swell outside
Halo Bar. i know its all useless.
turn "merlion" after i slept for a few hrs. headache hurts like mad... received his sms at 5am.. called him at 6 because theres no one home to ask for help. mum n bro left for work. next closet kin i could think of is him. he didnt tell me what to do to cure my headache but scolded me for drinking. in the end i ate 2 panadol and gradually fall aslp.
i am really really tired after all this... when will I start to slp as normal again?
i wish he is here with me right now. sleep over my hse tonight and irritate me by talking non-stop while i am trying to slp.
i miss you.
turn on the radio, class 95fm. and they r playing Only Love-trademark
But only love can say
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun wil shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i cant make you see it through
Thats something only love can do
In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousands miles apart
i've tried my best to make you see
Theres hope beyond pain
If we give enough
If we learn to trust
But only love can say
try again or walk away
but i believe for you and me
the sun wil shine one day
so i just play my part
pray you'll have a change of heart
but i cant make you see it through
thats something only love can do
i know if i could find the words
to touch you deep inside
you'll give my dreams just one more chance
to let this be our last goodbye
repeated almost 50times listening. meaningful har?
tomorrow is saturday. its going to be hard, but I know i will pull through :)
jiali jia you! rizal jia you too!
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Monday, July 13, 2009 5:35 PM ♥
im yearning for one cup of fresh ice blended Java Chips Frap, a poodle dog and seeing you.mayb not.
i hate this shitty job.
i miss doing art..
i am feeling so vexed.
i just want to go away.
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